THE  GOD  DIARY:

 


November 14, 2013

 

For me, I've never based my faith on whether my prayers got answered. Here is one definition of "faith" that I found: "strong belief or trust in someone or something." My belief is that I was put on this earth to serve God, regardless of what obstacles stand in my way. I get asked sometimes, how I can believe in God when I have so many illnesses and struggle through each day. To tell you the truth, I've never asked "Why me, God?" or became angry at God for my poor health. Yes, I've prayed to be healed, even went to Healing Services. The fact that I'm still ill, doesn't make me feel God loves me any less or isn't listening. I gave my life up to His plan, a long long time ago. My purpose is to honor and serve Him, regardless of my state of health. If God allowed His own son, Jesus, to suffer on the cross, what right do I have to insist He fix all my problems? I still pray and ask things of God, but always if it's according to His will. Better yet, I pray to understand His will.

When others asked Christ how to pray, he repeated the words to the Our Father prayer. If you reflect on it, you'll see it mentions God's will, forgiving others, protection from evil and help against temptation. "Give us this day our daily bread" is the part where we often find different interpretations. When Christ had the Last Supper, the breaking of the bread was His body, to be sacrificed later for us. So although some people may think the verse pertains to physical food, I always thought it meant spiritual nourishment. The Our Father prayer is the clue to what we should seek. Although I pray for mercy upon other people, and healing for them, I also pray for wisdom, graces and virtues I need for the day, strength, courage, a cheerful heart, hope, and above all, faith.

When something goes wrong in my life, I don't blame God. Crap happens. People can be bad. There is corruption and greed everywhere. Why does God allow it, you ask? Why would a good God allow it? Well, who am I to question God, who am I to judge Him, who am I to think I know His mind? I don't. God has never said "I'll make sure nothing will hurt you, ever." But God has offered to be our strength. The bible mentions the devil being cast down to earth. I often think Satan enjoys when we are in despair. Everyone goes through struggles. We are to serve Him, despite the afflictions and troubles.

In 2Corinthians, Chapter 12, verses 7 to 10, we hear Paul say...."Therefore, so that I would not become arrogant, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to trouble me – so that I would not become arrogant. I asked the Lord three times about this, that it would depart from me. But he said to me, 'My grace is enough for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' So then, I will boast most gladly about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may reside in me. Therefore I am content with weaknesses, with insults, with troubles, with persecutions and difficulties for the sake of Christ, for whenever I am weak, then I am strong."

When you become a christian or a believer, the problems do not fall away like the scales off a fish. But you can ask God for the graces, virtues, and strength you need in order to cope. Through suffering, others learn compassion. When something bad occurs, I ask God to bring something good out of it. Looking back upon my life, I can now see His plan in action, and how He saved me from some dire situations. Just because I may not understand His silent reply to one of my prayers at this moment, does not mean He is not active in my life. Sometimes silence IS the answer. A good example of this is when I've had someone hurt me many years ago. I had to forgive them and try not to feel vengeful. Sure enough, at a later date, that same person who hurt me was dealt something pretty terrible in their life. I can only hope they learned from the experience. But what it shows me is that God doesn't always need (nor have to) intervene. He sees all. He knows if the person who wronged us is going to get their comeuppance. And if not in this life, then perhaps the judgment will be after death. Either way, it isn't my business to carry out revenge upon them. It is my duty as a christian to forgive.

In my opinion, a real christian is not focusing on getting prayers answered; they are focusing on serving God in their daily life. This act of serving, is almost a form of prayer and praise. You cannot expect God to help you out if you are offending Him at every turn. Being lewd, crude, swearing, lying, etc... is not going to endear you to Him. So if you truly want a close relationship to God, change your ways, seek out the best way you can serve Him. Slowly, like a newborn baby's eyes opening for the first time, you will see the signs He is with you. 

Peace to all

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